November 16, 2020
Today, my workday has been drastically simplified. It's nice to not have to schedule practice tests or questions into my day. I'm getting some clarity on the expanded responsibilities for my role. I've also taken on another whole team which is a mess. Today, I must deliver a coaching member on an individual who is not performing well. This will be a difficult conversation, but necessary in light of the acquisition and the potential for layoffs to come.
I'm getting good at navigating layoffs in this new world. That is such a sad thing to type. I even feel like working out again, which will be good. I didn't realize how much that test affected my mood. How failing the first time really made me feel incomplete and stupid.
The other day Mike sent me a text with an image of those who encountered severe mental abuse. He's an attempt to let me know I am not stupid, that I shouldn't apologize for everything. You would think after so long away from that environment I would be better. The PTSD of mental abuse is everlasting.