|One week later...|
November 18, 2018
Back in early October, my mom had given me a "What I Ate" notepad for me to track breakfast, lunch, dinner, snacks and liquid intake each week. I started tracking my food intake last Monday and made it to Wednesday before I stopped writing in it. I was embarrassed by it.
So, here I am, pondering how I was able to lose 95 pounds in 18 months back in 2010-11, but why I'm having trouble today. I have more weight to lose this time around and I'm not getting any younger.
I know I'm addicted to food, but why? I feel if I can figure out the root of why I turn to food when I'm bored or emotional, it might help me have a healthier relationship with food.
I've thought of walking as therapy; to walk when I feel like eating, and because I like to walk. But I don't want to become like the "Walking Man" of our neighborhood, who seems compelled to walk at all hours of the day and maybe night. I don't know how he does that. I feel like my feet would fall off if I tried to walk as much as he does.
One option I keep thinking of is to talk to professionals, like a dietician and a therapist/psychiatrist. I think I have to talk to my doctor first to get referrals and hope our insurance covers it.
Anyway, I am going to try this "What I Ate" notepad again and hope that I can stick with it, especially if I need to show someone what and how I'm eating.