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May 2018

Back at the Starting Line
May 14, 2018

I hate being here. If I could just stay focused on this journey, I wouldn't have to say "I fell off the wagon again". Or that it takes months (each time) to realize that I don't want to be in this rut. But what can I do? Get mad, say "screw it" and eat my way to an early grave. Or get mad, say "this ain't working" and find a better way.

I eat a lot. If I'm not grazing out of boredom, then I'm eating because of some emotion (doesn't matter if it's happy, sad, or angry). If it's not a meal that hubby prepares, then it's most likely easy food… toast, cereal, chips, sweets, or something else that is processed for quick consumption.

I'm also mostly sedentary. I sit at the computer a lot. Probably more than those who have desk jobs. I might walk in the evening for an hour, but I'm lucky if it's faster than a casual pace. I sometimes listen to my fitbit when it reminds me to get up and get my 250 steps in each hour (between 9am and 6pm).

I am lucky that I don't weigh more than I do, but I don't want to weigh this much either. I know what I have to do. It's just a matter of breaking addictions and finding a new spark that'll help me reach my goals.


I stepped on the scale for the first time in months. I know that the time of the month can play tricks with the scale, but I'm okay. And after yesterday, I'm surprised to actually be about one pound less than I was at the beginning of the year. But I also know that my weight likes to bounce around within a ten pound range, as it has for years now, and that I need to get below a certain number before I can get hopeful.

So, first goal weight is 5 pounds less than my current weight.


Plans for this week…
-Listen to my Fitbit and get at least 250 steps each hour.
-Keep drinking plenty of water.
-No new sweets, refined carbs, or processed foods in the house. No matter how tempting it'll be.
-Try to walk at a slightly faster pace (even if it's not constant at first).
-If I find myself wanting food, to stop and ask myself why I want to eat. Keep track of the results.


Anyway, I hope it works this time and that I don't have to be back here again.

I can do it!

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