May 1, 2021
You ever have one of those really important dreams and, while dreaming, tell yourself you need to remember this because it’s a life changing thought? LOL well I did last night. Guess what?…….can’t remember it. Maybe it will come to me during the day. Hope.
Things are rolling along. Business is double what I had thought it would be at this point. It amazes me every day. How did this happen?
Son is doing well. He is back to his normal duty. So far so good. He seems to be approaching it with a different attitude. One that keeps things more in perspective. I know no matter what you do in that job you are affected. You can’t do that job without it happening. Thing is you have to remain vigilant and monitor yourself. If you find you are becoming angry for little or no reason, drinking more than is good for you, drugs or serial relationships these are all signs of trouble. You have to act as soon as you see it happening. He has drifted a bit from the contact he was maintaining with me but I expected that. As he was stronger he didn’t need to lean as much. Contact is more than it used to be so that is good.
Spring is here. Planted flowers. Love the smell in the air. Walked out last night just after a thunder storm. The smell in the air was amazing. I miss being able to just walk out the door and take a long walk in the sunshine. I so hope this is going to be resolved by the end of the year with the hip replacement. I haven’t seen all the changes that have taken place downtown. It’s really exciting to see the downtown come back so strongly. Not a big fan of the rent but hey, that will happen no matter where I go right now. Unless I move to a small town which isn’t something I want to do.
Had a guy come out and ask me if I was gay, gay friendly, bi and the list went on. LOL I know a straight guy hanging out in a gay bar can be confusing. Especially if you’re someone that has no issue with men showing affection for each other. So I’m sure word will get around with everyone that doesn’t already know that I’m straight. Even a fat bald guy can have his admirers I guess LOL.
This brought up a conversation about why I’m not dating someone. Is it sad I have not desire to date anyone? I don’t feel sad. I don’t feel like I’m losing something. Honestly I miss walking more than I do dating anyone.
This morning I woke up early. I opened my eyes and looked up at the sun coming in my skylights and just enjoyed the moment. Felt so thankful for everything in my life. Happy just to be alive. Thankful I was thankful.
Things I am thankful for:
my flowers in the planter looking so nice
another day on the earth