May 22, 2020
Interesting dreams last night. Working dreams. Not bad or good. Not unsettling just working.
One thing that I've been grappling with is fear. Fear my life is ebbing away. Fear I won't be able to enjoy my studio and all the hard work I've put into getting this far. Fear of losing my ability of taking care of myself. Lots of fears. Not sure what to do about them yet. Never been in this situation before.....hence fear. It will all wash out. Just like our current virus situation. It will all come to it's own conclusion. When I find myself fearful I try to remember that even if I do nothing it will pass. Question is how do I want to spend the journey? I don't like fear. I don't like how it makes me feel.
Saturday night I'm being part of a virtual wine tasting. Zoom has jumped to the forefront since this pandemic. That company stock has to be through the roof. Anyways we will all get together on zoom and drink.....LOL yes I'm sure the people could care less about the wine and more about seeing someone different and drinking while sharing stories and laughing. LOL hopefully I won't fall asleep and miss the fun.
Life is good. Even with everything going on......it's good.
Things I am thankful for: