|I don’t wanna. |
September 13, 2021
It is goddamn exhausting being everyones sole caretaker. I’ve been fine until today. Tropical Storm closed the schools, so 12 & 8 were home to help. 12 bitched & moaned & threw his fits all day til i took his switch. Then he threw an even bigger fit. Husband doesn’t get it cause his day at work was shit too. That’s the thing tho, his work days are ALWAYS shit so i never get any help.
I woke up last night with a fever, sore throat & body aches, still have it all today. Exhausted physically & mentally. Husbands home & im still doing it all. But it’s “ok” cause he swept the floor. He does help with the big kids when he’s off but when he’s working it. Is. All. On. Me. Hes barely held the newborn in over 6 weeks. I’m just tired. I’m tired of repeating myself, of cleaning, of cooking, of breastfeeding, of being touched 24/7. I wish i was exaggerating but i am touched 24/7.
I just want a break & possibly a new husband.