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January 31, 2021
I found out I was pregnant right after I turned 20. I was at my sisters apartment in El Cajon and we went to the store together and I got a pregnancy test with her and I saved it for when I went back to our apartment in Mission Beach.
I took the test and was in shock at the positive results.
I did not want to end up like my sisters who both got pregnant very young and the guys didn't stick around. I was in this very new relationship with a guy I was falling in love with. What was I going to do? I showed him the positive test and I think he was in just as much shock as I was and he took off and went to the beach and drank and pondered on the cliffs in La Jolla.
He came back very early in the morning and part of me felt abandoned and part of me felt like he had the right to that time.
The next couple weeks was discussion after discussion on what we were going to do. I remember sitting in class at La mesa talking to a friend about the different options and what option was a actual one for me. Abortion, adoption or keeping this baby growing inside me already.
After I went to my first appointment with the doctor to actual get a test, I took pregnancy vitamins home and pamphlets home that day. I had decided at that moment that I was keeping this baby and I wasn't going to pressure baby daddy into this huge life changing event. For the next couple weeks I didn't mention anything , we didn't talk about the pregnancy. There is no way I was going to make someone be with me because of the baby. I would lean on my family for help and I would be strong and be okay. Did I want to do it all alone , no but If I had to I would be okay.