June 7, 2021
Can you imagine being disabled yet expected to carry the brunt of the home expenses in the future? How does that make sense? What kind of work can I get being half blind with rheumatoid arthritis and peripheral neuropathy, among other things?!?!?!?!
And I will say it one day to her. We sometimes struggle with rent and the bills, and have to draw from the backup, but wtf can I do at this very moment to bring money in to help?!?!?! I need surgery on an effing finger on my dominant hand right now because I can't make a fist. How the eff will I function in a work place like that?!?!?!? Sciatica and back pain I can manage, but when the main component needed to do the type of work I'm qualified to do is not in full commission, the eff else can I do?!?!
I'm not the only person not working now either yet it's always me that's getting the effing snarky hints and comments. Why doesn't she say it to that sister who is healthier than me?!?!?! EFF YOU!!!!
Holy shit, I need to go somewhere. I know I said I'm not the marrying type, but honestly, if it takes marrying to get this effer to stfu about my not working, then I'll take the effing plunge.
What's the effing point of mentioning that I'm jobless when you effing know why I can't work currently!?!?!?!? What the eff am I supposed to do?!