October 24, 2020
I am so right now it's unbelievable. Let me try and explain.
I have my Fenian. We are part of a club if you will, not a swingers or swappers club, just a Master/slave club. We also have a sub, Aoife, pronounced ee-fa-. My Fenian outranks her since she is a probationary sub and Fenian is a slave. The difference? Slaves consent to no consent. Subs have limits and negotiate a lot.
So, we, as a household, have been looking for another Dominant. Someone who would be under me, but over Fenian and Aoife. A young man joined the club. A doctor, just out of med school. A nice guy, seems to like some of the same things my Fenian likes. Made him laugh, seemed into him. Said things like, "I can't wait to read your emails. they are the delight of my evening." Kept talking about getting him into bed.
Fenian was into him too, with my blessing. I was all for it. I enbcouraged the two of them. Now, my Fenian is autistic, and so social skills are not necessarily his strong suit. He doesn't know, for example, that his I like you signals might be seen by someone as OMG, this guyy's falling in love with me. We were still in the exploratory stages. No commitments had been made.
They exchanged phone numbers and Fenian would get so excited when he'd see a message from E in his email. They texted for an hour on Thursday night and talked for two hours this morning and texted from 12 to 7:30 Friday night. Then, all of a sudden, the responses from E keep getting longer and longer apart.
Fenian asked if he had done something or said something. E told him no, he just didn't like to text and he like to reserve texts for his family. Well, Fenian and I thought this was odd, as they'd been texting for hours and not a word about that. E had seen pics of Fenian before his transition, but he asked for some from after his top surgery. Fenian sent them.
After they stopped texting, I noticed Fenian seemed troubled and I asked him what was wrong. He told me he thought he had pushed E away somehow and he couldn't figure out what he had done or said to make E not want to talk to him anymore.
Fenian checked for an email throughout the evening and finally, he got one. It basically said that although he, E, was willing to be a FWB, he was not willing to be in any kind of poly relationship. He claimed it wasn't fenian's going to prison, or his being trans, or anything like that, which leads me to believe that it's any or all of these things. He said he didn't want to break Fenian's heart, but he felt Fenian was too intense and too into him and it was freaking him out. He felt that Fenian was thinking of doing something crazy like leaving me for him.
Fenian responded graciously, but he is crushed and I am angry. This guy led my love on, made him think he was interested in something more and then cast him aside for some unknown reason with a letter that said, I like you, but I don't have romantic feelings for you and I think you do for me. Well, first of all, how can you have romantic feelings for someone you've just met? Doesn't love develop over time?
I feel Fenian was lied to, led on and I am not happy. A pox on your house, E.