October 3, 2020
One thing I will say about this process so far is that things do change almost daily. By “things” I mean mood, energy level, outlook, motivation… and as I’m typing this I’m wondering if this is a weight loss surgery thing or a life thing? I mean… this stuff changed almost daily even without the surgery. I guess I’m just hyper-aware of how I’m feeling now.
Last night when we got over to our friends’ house for our Oktoberfest celebration, suddenly I was kind of Blah. I was not in the mood to hang out and I was just feeling kind of flat ( I know that’s a strange description but it’s the first thing that came to mind). I did fine hanging out and not being Debbie Downer or anything, but inside, I just wanted to be home and in my own space. I wasn’t tired, really. I was just… well… flat. We got home around 8:30 and I was happy to go to the bedroom and just watch Netflix alone. My mood shift was nothing my husband even noticed (or at least if he did, he didn’t comment on it… and he would have asked me if I was feeling OK). But I definitely noticed.
Energy level- that changes RAPIDLY. I think this comes down to the fact that while I’m feeling better physically, there’s still a lot of work my body is doing to repair itself and adjust to this new normal. And- there’s undoubtedly been stress on my body that wasn’t there before the surgery. Top it all off with the fact that I’m maybe getting 400 calories a day and about 250 of those calories are coming from only the protein powder. Yeah, I know it’s to be expected. I’m not worried, just making an observation.
Today was pretty normal. It was a lazy morning for me and then I got out of the house to run some errands. I went shopping (still hunting down the perfect Halloween candy bowl) and spent about 3 hours just putzing around town. I ran to Walmart for some odds and ends. Side note – I am thrilled to report I found low-sugar spaghetti sauce, sugar free BBQ sauce and a couple other items that I thought I’d have to really hunt for. WALMART TO THE RESCUE ! I was feeling pretty normal all afternoon but when I got home I was irritable all of a sudden. I think maybe I was on my way to being too hungry again. I thought I mitigated that risk by eating a half of a cheese stick but maybe not. I’m learning…
So the point of all this is that I’m all over the place lately when it comes to how I’m feeling hour-by-hour. It’s not a horrible thing that is interfering with my life or anything. It’s just something I’ve noticed. 😊
How am I feeling (now)? I feel tired today. I did quite a bit of stuff today so that makes sense. I feel like I will sleep well tonight. That’s a good thing! And I am very happy that I’m finally moving out of the soup phase. On Tuesday, I move into puree and soft foods. I am so ready for some new stuff in my diet – I mean- my taste buds are ready. We shall see if my new stomach is ready. As I mentioned above, I’ve been eating cheese sticks. I know this isn’t allowed during the full liquids phase but I’m finding it very difficult when I need a snack of some kind. There’s nothing that I’ve found that I can have that is somewhat OK. I tried some tiny bites of cheese stick the other day (not sure if I already wrote about this) and I did fine. I only ate ½ of the cheese stick and that seemed to do the trick. I’ve done that a couple other times and no problems so far. I chew it till it’s liquid anyway and I eat it so slow. I’m not one to push the envelope like this because I do think it’s very important to follow the eating plan I’ve been given. So I won’t be trying to see what I can get away with. I haven’t had any issues with what I’m eating. No nausea. Bowel movements are happening regularly (although when you’re on a liquid diet it’s not like it was before surgery). I am starting to feel slight hints of acid reflux. That freaks me out a little bit because I’m very worried that this will be worse than it was before the surgery. I’ve taken famotidine a couple of times and I will continue to do so as soon as I feel any hint of it coming on.
Emotionally/mentally – today I feel good. I am pretty satisfied with how things are going right now. I’m not expecting to lose big amounts like I did last week so I’m not overly stressed out about that. I know I’m doing what I’m supposed to do, so I’ll focus on that. It keeps me sane, rather than worrying about losing lots of weight each week. I can’t do that to myself. Yes, for the most part, I feel like I’m handling my mental/emotional state pretty well… at least for today.
We will see what tomorrow brings.