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Transmogrification by MsMagenta
September 2020

October 2020
September 2020

Shit just got real
September 10, 2020

I called my doctor’s office yesterday to let them know that I had received my insurance approval and wanted to know next steps. Apparently, I received notification about my approval before the doctor’s office did. Interesting. And much to my surprise, my surgery has already been scheduled for SEPTEMBER 21. Surprised That’s not what I was expecting.

I was planning on writing today about some of the “cons” of this surgery, but that entry will have to wait until my brain slows down just a bit.

I figured I’d get the approval eventually and then surgery would be scheduled for about a month out. Not so much… as of tomorrow, my surgery will be TEN DAYS AWAY! This is blowing my mind a bit. Yesterday when I got this news (at about 2:00 PM), the assistant told me that they definitely could postpone the procedure but if it wasn’t done in September, there is a chance that it may have to wait till after the first of the year. Well, considering my insurance deductible is already met for this year, that didn’t make financial sense to me, so 9/21 it is. So needless to say, I’ve been in a bit of a tailspin since yesterday at 2.

She also told me that I need to get a chest x-ray, an EKG, and labs and “it would be best if you can get this done before the end of this week because the doctor will be on vacation next week so he’ll need time to review the results.” So… by “THIS WEEK” you mean I need to figure out these appointments for Thursday (TODAY) and Friday? She said not to worry if I couldn’t get all the appointments in but it would really be best. Irked Wow. OK… so I was up early and on the phone this morning trying to make any arrangements I could with the necessary offices. I’m happy to report that today, I was able to get my labs and my chest x-ray (Thank GOD) and then tomorrow I have my EKG and also my pre-op appointment with my surgeon (because, of course, he is going on vacation next week).

I’m a bit freaked out. I mean, I’m not freaked out about the surgery. I do really feel at peace with my decision and I have confidence in my medical team and their reputations. Believe me, I did the research. I’m more freaked out about the lack of time to get my shit together. I know it’ll all work out fine, but it’s taking me some time to process all of this. I keep telling myself, “you’ve had 8 months to process all of this.” Yes. Completely true. But last week I was looking at the likelihood of an end of the year surgery. Now I’m looking at just a little over a week. How can I possibly eat all of the “last meals” that I want to have in 10 days? Laughing Just kidding (sort of)

I’m making lots of lists and notes to make sure I have everything I need, for the hospital and for the immediate needs right after surgery. I’m excited. I’m nervous. I’m also ready. Or… I will be ready in 10 days.

And might I just add how amazing my bosses have been about all of this. I broke the news to them yesterday and instead of being irritated at the last-minute notice, they were both so excited and supportive. For the time being, I’ve decided to take the week of the surgery off. I will check in with my bosses on Thursday of surgery week and let them know how I’m feeling and whether or not I think I will be able to work (from home) the next week. My job is not strenuous or stressful at all. It seems like I will be able to handle it from my recliner or even from my bed. But it’s nice to know that I have options. My work team is fantastic!

I’m sure I’ll have a lot more information tomorrow after my pre-op consult with the doctor. Until then… I will continue to make lists and get organized as best as I can.

More to come… stay tuned…

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