June 3, 2020
We all have memories we want to repeat all over again, sometimes even the ones that hurt the most cause we think we can somehow make them turn out better.
Six years ago I met an incredible guy. He was my big crush in middle school, the typical popular guy the plays basketball and he´s like the mvp and stuff (not so hansdome btw but I´ve been seeing him like the most handsome guy in the world).
And guess what, not far along we became closer and we turned out to be a couple, my first love, my greatest love.
We shortly got into high school, we were the classic couple goals, the longest relationship we both could ever had.
We were together for almost 5 years, long time huh.
You may think everything was perfect, why did we break up?
We got into college and everything got harder, a long distance relationship it´s not easy, we were trying our best, I was giving the best of me, but I guess he couldn´t do it anymore, he terminated our relationship.
Two years have passed since then and we´re still in contact, we´re still in love with each other but the circumstances are just impossible.
He´s got a kid now, a little girl product of a drunk and crazy night, I guess she´s innocent but I can´t take my mind out of the idea that we could still build a future togheter.
Every night before going to sleep I can´t stop thinking about what could´ve been if we were still together, and I´m sure I´d be happier than what I am right now.
I can´t stop loving him, believe I´ve tried everything, but my heart keeps going back to him and it kills me that we can´t be together.
I dream with him every night, I still want him in spite of everything we´ve been through, and I´m sure he thinks the same way... I wish I could just hit *REPLAY*