September 16, 2020
I've decided no walking today. Will repeat the 6 km walk tomorrow morning as I need to finish grocery shopping in the afternoon and have a several hour nap before my evening meeting and I will be up all night working on the inside of my tiny home.
I had a meltdown at three thirty this morning because of the state of it. Yes, my tiny home needs a thorough makeover. Tried to start yesterday but got side~tracked to the gardens. Gardens are so alluring. I simply can't help myself. Just THE BEST therapy.
Organising and cleaning my homes is not therapy. It's a toxic, arduous chore. A fucking nightmare of a job. I've done quite a few years drinking and using drugs in my homes. This has something to do with it, I'm quite sure.
Attended my 1300 pm appointment with T. She's our diabetic nurse here at our family medical center. I've lost 5 kgs exactly but it was a cheat weigh~in, because I had only eaten a plain buckwheat pancake over the last 24 hours. That's 5 kilos. It doesn't feel like it, so there is non-related weight loss work to do as well. It'll only be one major thing but it will be fucken deep. It's got to come out of me. I don't want IT in me anymore. I've never wanted any of this shit inside me.
I'm stoked in a humble way over my weight loss and it is giving me hope to carry on. This is one of the hardest journeys I've had, with weight loss.
I've had half a litre of water so far. And a delicious early "morning tea" latte (at a local cafe, when out with Anne.) That's my fluid intake for the day so far.
Breakfast/lunch combined meal was also my treat day meal at SUBWAYS!! I've changed my treat day Wednesdays meal to Subway now CF the Roadside Diner. I miss the diner but not the food. They had a television. Subway's doesn't.
Ordered a footlong steak sub made up on a rye and mixed seeds roll. Absolutely great. Polished the whole thing off at the restaurant.
I bought two large Subway cookies too. An expresso coffee cookie, and a white chocolate and macadamia cookie. Sat down on a bench on the main street and scoffed them as slowly as I could manage. They were so delicious.
About to get up and make a coffee and chicory hot drink.
Also chewed my way through half a tube of Mentos chewy mints. I won't buy any more for a while. It's my 3rd tube in a week.
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