|Training and pain!|
March 14, 2019
Had two really great cane training sessions yesterday. I am enduring more now and the strokes are harder. I find that after these sessions, I am more relaxed, do not need anxiety medication and have no more PTSD related nightmares. So, I'm all for the cane training.
Right now though, I am in severe pain...... My legs feel like they are being ground up and twisted off at the knees. It is so fucking painful. I feel like I want to throw up, because it hurts so bad, but if I do, I'll probably pass out because of the pain from dislocated ribs from my Ehlers-Danlos Syndrome.
My Masters promised me a play session, but I don't even know if I can even become aroused from the pain. Please, please, please God, let it get better soon.
i had to go and say something...about how good life has been since my cane training began. I just had a horrible nightmare. My little hunt terrier and best friend, has been attacked three times by strange dogs. All the attacks caused serious injury to the little guy and at one time, he really was at risk of dying.
I had a dream that we were watching my mother's dogs, Murphy, a Golden Retriever, and Tony, an Italian Spinone. I don't know where the other two dogs were...... anyway, we were watching them and I heard one of the dogs growling at the others and I told Master JM that there was going to be a food fight. He grabbed up the bowls and then two of the big dogs turned on each other. Somehow, the little one ended up in one of their mouths. I got him loose, and again, he got attacked.....
I woke up crying. Screaming, really. I woke Master KJ up and I feel horrible. He is making me some calming tea.