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February 9, 2018
A year ago today, I was nearing the end of a relapse that would cause me to snap and start a fire that would put me in jail, looking at years in prison. I don't remember this day or even this week that I was in; my mind was gone. My body was being controlled by everything dark because of my disobedience and my choice to look back at my Sodom and Gomorrah. The fire that would take place on Valentine's Day coming up would signify God's STOP sign in my life. He had been warning me on and on and on for months. I saw the signs. I just didn't fully understand them. I knew I was sinning but I chose to keep going back. In fact, the night I relapsed in 2017; superbowl night....I flipped a coin. Did I call heads or tails? I don't remember. But I won. and my words to Chris were clearly, "I guess I have another lesson to learn" then we were off to get meth.
WOW, it is breathtaking to look back and see how far He has brought me from the 9th of February 2017 to the 9th of February 2018. From being stuck in a cycle of addiction...losing my mind...losing all sight of hope. Wallowing in unforgiveness that would project itself through an act of hatred that could have robbed me of my physical freedom for years to come...
-sober for almost 9 months
-homelessness to living in my own apartment
-After 2 plans of moving to Greeley were thwarted, God brought me here to Greeley and has kept me.
-After many failed attempts of college, I am in my second semester of school!
-My health is amazingly great! All of my organs are functioning as God intended them to.
-Today, I can positively and confidently say that I am NOTHING without Christ! Why does this comfort me? Because He promises to never leave me. Therefore, I don't have to worry about feeling like I am nothing ever again. I have everything and can do all things through Christ who strengthens me. Amen!