|What am I missing?|
July 19, 2020
I hold onto you no matter how much it hurts. I won't let go. 5 years is around the corner. Even when I see you I know deep down that it isn't right. but yet I cling. Especially when I do not see you, especially when you disappear. Why do I hang on so tight to someone that couldn't care less about me? Is it something deeper? What's wrong with me? Is there something wrong with me? am I just lonely?
I just want to disappear, but instead I am going to pull myself together and put my energy into study and cleaning and tomorrow I have work. Tomorrow is a new day. Please let me let go.