December 22, 2019
Can't I just be emotional and cry.
I wish you loved me but you don't.
I wish I didn't like you but I do.
I wish I could just lay here by myself and it be enough. And it is enough but I kiss you and I want you. I can't have you. Even if you wanted me, even if you worked for it... The fact is in the end you will just leave. Like you always do.
Just want to cry rn. I just want to be sad rn that I have a little time. I'll pull myself together in the morning. I just need to let myself feel everything now so I can try and feel nothing tomorrow.