Today is January 15, 2021
Join Now! | Home | Sign in | FAQ | Help
Emotional Mess by carol15
November 2019

January 2021
December 2020
November 2020
October 2020
September 2020
August 2020
July 2020
June 2020
May 2020
April 2020
February 2020
January 2020
December 2019
November 2019
October 2019
September 2019
August 2019
May 2019
December 2017
November 2017
October 2017
September 2017
August 2017
July 2017
June 2017
April 2017
January 2017
November 2016
October 2016
September 2016
August 2016

letting go
November 15, 2019

I haven't messaged you in 2 weeks. Sometimes I want to because I miss what I felt or because I am horny af.
I love you... I loved you. I never said it in person for fear that you would say it back because you felt that you needed to not because you meant it.
You told me you figured I loved you after I texted how I felt. It seemed to make you happy to know how I felt. It made you want to lose me less. I'm not sure what me loving you had to do with anything.

The sex was different, you wanted to please me and focus on me getting mine. I loved it, It was amazing even though sometimes it was awkward. You would ask me if I wanted something and I would reply if you didn't then that's fine. and you would say that that means that I do want it...

Anyway, there were a few awkward moments like that. But you wouldn't give me that courtesy with other things. Things outside the bedroom.

I want to text you every now and again but I don't because there is no point.

Soon I won't think about you or desire you as much. You will always be a big part of my life even though it ended in pain. I have a feeling that there is still one more chapter left in our book. It'll be a short chapter if it does exist. Maybe it's just the chapter where I finally fully let you go.

Idk, time will tell. There is no future here.
Login to select
your favorite journals


Visit my Forum

© Website Copyright 2019 by
© Journal Content Copyright 2019 by the Author
Terms of Service Agreement
Privacy Policy