|It's hard, but appreciate yourself|
November 12, 2019
Sometimes we forget how far we have come in life. We forget how hard we worked and how much energy and tears we have poured into being where we are. Whether that means that you are doing what you can to provide for your family or becoming the CEO of a badass company. Or somewhere in the middle.
Success- it's defined on a case by case scenario. It's what you consider successful. Whether it be happiness, money, family, etc.
I think it's easy to talk ourselves down. To not believe our own reality. To feel like you don't know what you are doing. Let me tell you a secret: no one knows what the fuck they are doing.
I recently had the opportunity to befriend a man, who everyone in my class knows to be smart af. He was awarded a $10k scholarship the year before last, he's already passed all four parts of the CPA and befriending him, I realize that he is like all of us. Scared af and questioning his own abilities. Kicking himself for being who he is.
We all can sound awesome on paper, but that fact is we are more complicated than that.
We need to be able to pat ourselves on the back for making it this far. For not offing ourselves at this point. Life is hard for everyone. Some people have more challenges than others or that we even realize.
It's hard to see our successes especially if you're like me and have hit a rut. Make sure to take care of yourself. Tell yourself that it is okay. Because it is okay. We all fail sometimes, the difference is whether we get up and try again or try something different (change careers).
It's okay to take a moment and breathe whether that moment is a break from school or a weekend away from your life. Maybe the only thing you can do is treat yourself to a bath because you have no time for anything else. You deserve it. I deserve it.
I haven't been in a good mood for a long time. I'm feeling motivated for the first time in ages. Idk if it's the vitamins I started taking or if it was hitting the right spot when I masturbated earlier. The fact is I feel amazing and I want to push myself to be better, but I also have to realize that if I fail it isn't the end of the world, and I can come back from it.
I admit I have been lucky to have the opportunities I have been given. and I have to appreciate that. But I also have to appreciate that part of the reason I have those opportunities is that I worked my ass off for them.
I'm taking the night off and dancing my butt off/ watching movies. Tomorrow I have to come back to reality and start a paper and work on other assignments.
But tonight is ALL MINE!