November 3, 2019
This weekend was not what I was expecting. I enjoyed it, it turned into a lot of fun. I got to do everything I had wanted to do. I was so drained Friday that I dreaded the idea of socializing but had accepted a friend's company for the weekend. We ended up watching movies and eating junk and sleeping. Which all I wanted, on top of it I got cuddles, which felt really good. I also found the energy to go dancing which is what I really have been wanting to do for a while. I got to enjoy the feeling of being with someone without actually being with them. I realized a few things.
Compromising sucks, I forgot that being single I can do what I want whenever I want without having to consider someone else. I also missed my space, having my bedroom to myself and just chilling by myself.
It was also really fun to annoy the shit out of someone and fake wrestle and be able to snuggle and just have someone else's company there.
Me and him used to be fuck buddies. We are just freinds now since I am not doing the casual thing right now. I admit that we fooled around a litte. Just hand stuff, but it felt really good to me. and I am sure him as well.
I had fun. It was nice. Now I'm glad to be by myself but am not glad that a new week starts tomorrow. I hope it's a good week.