|Just a pathetic rant|
October 10, 2019
I want to be alone, but at the same time, I want someone to be intimate with.. there is no winning.
I cry because I'm alone. I cry because I am scared to be with someone. I cry because the person that likes me doesn't like me.
But mostly I cry because no matter what I do, I will never be satisfied.
I can stay away from everyone and be alone, or I can get close to people and be overwhelmed with ideas of being suffocated. There is no middle ground.
I feel sad right now and want to cry, but I can't.
I hate you because I need to blame someone for the way I feel, and you are the perfect villain in this life of mine.
Is the way I feel normal. I'm sad all the time it feels like. The worst thing to happen to me this week is my foot got a scab and yet I can't be happy. I can't breathe. Sure, I have anxiety about flunking out of grad school but that...
I just want to run.. let me run please...